D=S-M



This formula means despair = suffering-meaning and it’s the best way to describe my inability to accept what happened to me and its results, however I injured my brain but this didn't injure me as a person and this knowledge has been fueling all my interests that have given me the opportunity to research and study of subjects that I never would have thought to be important.
I’ve learned that meaning can be found in every human condition, including sufferance and desperation and we as humans are able to even give positive meaning to what seems to be very negative superficially.
Learning about these subjects and talking with a friend who’s a real expert and I'm reading what Viktor Frankl wrote about this are giving me the desire to reinvent myself as a human subject even if I’m broken.
I want to do this primarily to be remembered by those who love me for many years in the future, which to me means to become somewhat immortal, my children are now too young to be exposed to what I’m learning these days but since they both are smart and sensitive in few years they’ll know from me about what I’m studying which even it’s been discussed by philosophers for hundreds of years will give them an edge in all they will choose to do.

REALIZATION



When I discovered in internet HBOT and what it can do for injuries in our body, including the brain I watched very many Youtube videos of victims like me that say how well they have recovered and how their lives are close to how they were before the injury.
I got so very excited to have found a cure to my brain injury that I now realize that I never watched those videos with attention and I told everyone that after doing very few sessions I would have returned to be as I was before the injury.
Too recently I realized that not only I’ll never return even close to the man I was but that to even have the recovery that I need and want is going to take very many HBOT sessions and very much physical rehabilitation work.
It’s going to take years of very hard work and focus of my mind to even be close to what I call normal and this is very hard to accept because my plans were monthly at most while now they must be yearly.
Even if the time horizon has expanded my determination to make a return hasn’t decreased one bit, I feel I have too much at stake not to win this battle plus I want my children to learn from me that it’s determination, focus and tirelessness that give success and satisfaction. Winning a battle without fighting it can be nice but it doesn’t provide any satisfaction which is what motivates making a sacrifice even more than the prize itself. There’s so much that I can teach and show to my young children that I’m sure can give them not only success but the right way to enjoy it.
Knowing how much harder and more I must work for the prize of normality makes me want it even more.

IMMORTALITY

Today I watched the movie “God on trial” about Jews in Auschwitz who shortly before being killed with gas showers put on a trial in which God is accused of betrayal since Babylon and their escape from Egypt, it’s the most documented and harshest movie I’ve ever seen demonstrating with historical facts that there’s no God, we as humans have the intellectual need to believe in the existence of a supernatural being to be able to imagine a better existence once the earthly one is over.
Only the belief of having a soul can give support to the idea of an afterlife with the organization that Dante Alighieri put in his Comedy, what Dante did was to arrange in a poetic form many of the stories and legends that were common among the peasants in Tuscany in his time or the XIII century, however the very big importance of Dante and his work is that he used an Italian dialect that was being spoken in Tuscany that is today the current Italian language, with his work and its popularity words and grammatical rules are still used today. Some people say that current Italian language comes from Tuscany and I add that it’s been thanks to Dante and his Comedy that it happened.
So while I don’t believe in the existence of the soul nor of a God but I do believe in immortality which is connected with intelligence.
After we die we can become immortal through the memory of the people we affected while living with our intelligence which corresponds to our way to understand, explain and give reason to things.
My immortality will be given by my children who are going to remember for many years in their future my ideas and preferences and maybe even tell their own children about them.
So I may be immortal for close to a hundred years.

REINAISSANCE



The beginning of this millennium is very similar to how the first one started with senseless wars in which too many people who were driven by ideals found death in very foreign countries fighting people who have beliefs and history not even comparable to ours.
These wars are named crusades that were followed by the human need to improve the living conditions and generated a rebirth in arts and sciences so impressive that still today, about 600 years later we enjoy their products.
There is a general, but not unchallenged, consensus that the Renaissance began in Florence, Tuscany in the 14th century. Various theories have been proposed to account for its origins and characteristics, focusing on a variety of factors including the social and civic peculiarities of Florence at the time; its political structure; the patronage of its dominant family, the Medici; and the migration of Greek scholars and texts to Italy following the Fall of Constantinople at the hands of the Ottoman Turks.
Science and art were very much intermingled in the early Renaissance, with artists such as Leonardo da Vinci making observational drawings of anatomy and nature. An exhaustive 2007 study by Fritj of Capra shows that Leonardo was a much greater scientist than previously thought, and not just an inventor. In science theory and in conducting actual science practice, Leonardo was innovative. He set up controlled experiments in water flow, medical dissection, and systematic study of movement and aerodynamics; he devised principles of research method that for Capra classify him as “father of modern science”. In Capra's detailed assessment of many surviving manuscripts Leonardo's science is more in tune with holistic non-mechanistic and non-reductive approaches to science which are becoming popular today. Perhaps the most significant development of the era was not a specific discovery, but rather a process for discovery, the scientific method. This revolutionary new way of learning about the world focused on empirical evidence, the importance of mathematics, and discarding the Aristotelian "final cause" in favor of a mechanical philosophy. Early and influential proponents of these ideas included Copernicus and Galileo. In his 1991 survey of these developments, Charles Van Doren considers that the Copernican revolution really is the Galilean cartesian (René Descartes) revolution, on account of the nature of the courage and depth of change their work brought about.

MY CASE



I’ve been advised by an attorney who formerly dealt with my case that never became criminal against the Wojcik’s to contact a District Attorney to have it looked over again and determine both if the case is criminal and I was compensated for my many losses adequately.
After doing a small internet search for the local DA I found a nice website with the picture of our DA who is going to learn about my case and make the decision if it’s worthwhile to open it again to change some of what was done 4 years ago. In the meantime I’m helping a very good friend to find the way to commercialize a system to learn a foreign language based principally in learning by heart sets of words in the language being studied before the teacher gives the grammatical lesson, it’s a system that puts the lexical approach into practice.

GOING FORWARD



As I think about my life in the past 4 years and try to imagine what it may be going forward I realize that this time is very short compared to both my life in the past and future, my father is 83 and still in good conditions overall so I’m thinking that since medicine keeps getting better I’m going to live at least to his age and I’m hoping to be still alive 40 years from now which will mean dozens of different things.
My son Brent will be 51 with a wife and my grandchildren and Giorgia will be 48 also with children already in their teens.
To me this means that the suffering of these past 4 years will only be a vague memory by the time I’ll be in my 60es.
The ability and sensitivity of looking at things from different points of view and with different perspectives does help my evaluation of this time that I see now terribly painful and unjust.
In few more years what I feel to be very unfair will get blended both with my earlier 45 years of life and the ones about to come.
The ancient Romans would say “Qui satis expectat, prospera cuncta videt.” Or as we say “wait and see” this is what I’m doing now and in my future.

IGNORANCE VICTIM, PLEASANTLY


I’m simply a victim of immense and worldwide ignorance regarding HBOT but with the growth of my knowledge of it I’ve been blessed with getting to know some of the most sophisticated minds of the world who do understand what HBOT can do and have supported its use since decades by having very high positions in organizations related to its broadening.
The most recent personality that I’ve had the honor to talk with and receive support from is a board-certified in nuclear medicine and co-founder of the Hyperbaric Medicine, he is now looking at my SPECT scan and has put me in touch with a Neuro-physical rehabilitator who is going to direct my efforts in this field.
To my amazement the rehabilitator has known of HBOT and its benefits when applied to treat TBI for many years so that he’ll direct my local rehabilitator in what to do to improve both my spasticity and mental stability. I’m starting to see the pay-off of the hundreds of hours that I spent researching this therapy and talking to people who know about it, therefore use it.
I’ve lost all I ever did in my life, including my wife, what I’m now doing is to make sure that my children feel my love and presence so that never will fear anything in life, if I can do this I owe it to the very many people who taught me all I know now about HBOT and to my own persistence in refusing to accept to live disabled.

BIG CHANGES



The other day I had a one hour long phone conversation with the doctor who I consider the father of the use of HBOT to correct TBI. He looked at the devastation of my brain revealed by the SPECT scan that I had done after two full years of asking, he said that this therapy may never let me walk again and do it if I have other reasons to do it and I believe in it.
I’ve learned so very much about this therapy and because I’m now in the position to continue to do it because it reduces the edema that I have in the legs plus it keeps improving my reasoning and logic that I’m going to continue for as long as I can, plus this doctor told me that taking long pauses while doing it doesn’t affect the improvements that I may have gained while doing it. Many other things have changed in my own life as well as in my wife’s who has finally understood how non-committal her lover is so now she’s on her own free to focus on our children and myself, even if from a distance.
I realize that my savings made for emergency situations have been primarily used to support my family that has been in emergency mode for the last four years and I’m sure that my wife has arranged them in the way to continue their benefic use for many more years.
All I’ve been writing and reporting about the use of HBOT for TBI stays the same and available for all who want to learn about it, I changed only the graphics of my blog so there’s no need to fear that anything is lost.

ROLES OF IGNORANCE AND MONEY



Every single war of the past got started and ended for money reasons, hundreds of years ago land was like money is today and money is the only reason why HBOT isn’t accepted at medical level today, too much money is being made by all the support programs in place for people with both mental and physical disabilities and since HBOT uses oxygen which is more than 20% of the air that we are breathing every minute anywhere on Earth too many would be losing the big profits that they have been making showing that they can give care to TBI victims.
On top of the money reason there’s ignorance that was always involved in each war that ever took place on Earth and I don’t even need to give any explanation of this because it can even been seen daily in children. Those who don’t know can’t get along with the ones who do know how to do in many instances.
I’ve added here on the right-hand-side a list of links about the acceptance by the VA of the use of HBOT for the many soldiers coming back from war zone with TBI and PTSD.
I’m guessing that it’ll be our Army that will push for the medical acceptance of this therapy which is already accepted for a dozen of medical conditions that have no chemical solution.

HBOT RE-STARTS



Today I started to do again the therapy that I believe that can help my body heal my brain injury.
After spending a very long time on the phone with someone who is a very big expert of this therapy and has been doing for decades on people with brain injury, I have slightly modified the parameters and sequence that I was using before and I’m also going to have a professional trainer come to me for educated physical therapy.
Even if the SPECT scan of my brain show well the devastation I had and I was told that I may never walk again I’m going to do what’s right and look for the signs that I’ve been told to look for, there’s also the assessment of a good neuropsychologist done last week that says that I did improve from the one I had done almost two years ago and this doctor told me that I can still learn and grow as a person very much if I can just get over the fact that I must sit on a wheelchair live my life.
I’ve also started to see regularly another neuropsychologist who will help me accept my disabilities to give room to the growth that I can do.
This combination of seeing a very experienced specialist of traumatic brain injury and doing again HBOT correctly I’m sure that it will bring welcome changes in my life, the only one change that I’m forcing to happen is my divorce that I wish I wouldn’t be forced to do but is now beyond necessary.

OXYGEN TOXICITY

A very knowledgeable doctor in the HBO field donated to me a phone consultation about my SPECT scans and the protocol I use to do HBOT and to my own amazement I learned that my negative symptoms are due to the too high amount of oxygen that I breathe in every HBOT session. Oxygen toxicity is a condition resulting from the harmful effects of breathing molecular oxygen (O2) at elevated partial pressures. It is also known as oxygen toxicity syndrome, oxygen intoxication, and oxygen poisoning. Historically, the central nervous system condition was called the Paul Bert effect, and the pulmonary condition the Lorrain Smith effect, after the researchers who pioneered its discovery and description in the late 19th century. Severe cases can result in cell damage and death, with effects most often seen in the central nervous system, lungs and eyes. Oxygen toxicity is a concern for scuba divers, those on high concentrations of supplemental oxygen, and those undergoing hyperbaric oxygen therapy.
The result of breathing elevated concentrations of oxygen is hyperoxia, an excess of oxygen in body tissues. The body is affected in different ways depending on the type of exposure. Central nervous system toxicity is caused by short exposure to high concentrations of oxygen at greater than atmospheric pressure. Pulmonary and ocular toxicity result from longer exposure to elevated oxygen levels at normal pressure. Symptoms may include disorientation, breathing problems, and vision changes such as myopia. Prolonged or very high oxygen concentrations can cause oxidative damage to cell membranes, the collapse of the alveoli in the lungs, retinal detachment, and seizures. Oxygen toxicity is managed by reducing the exposure to elevated oxygen levels. Studies show that, in the long term, a robust recovery from most types of oxygen toxicity is possible.

MY FORMER SWIM TRAINER



Alberto Castagnetti was my most important and memorable swim trainer whom I met at age 15 and remained an influence in my life, because of swimming and other things, until I was around age 26. He just died as technical leader of the Italian Swim Team of a heart attack when he was 66 years of age, which in these times is considered to still be young.
I have very many memories of him training me in my team and playing tennis in the club fields that are part of the club where I was swimming. I’ve read the interviews to the several athletes who broke world swim records at the Olympic Games or World Championships who have been so much influenced by his personality and attitude to work hard to obtain what’s important and wanted that I know that his way of doing and understanding things will remain alive in the minds of dozens of people worldwide.
I never called him by first name, Castagnetti was the way me and all else used to reference and talk to him. He has been his all life someone who nobody could avoid or disregard, as the technical leader of the Italian Swim Team he brought very many medals and records to the Country that now has one of the strongest swim teams in the world.
He influenced my ability to put everything in the right perspective, which may mean to diminish or augment the impact that they may have on my life and for doing this I cannot thank him enough.
Castagnetti is another example of my wealth of experience and knowledge that I can pass over to my children who are the world’s next generation.

DANTE SEES GOD



The importance of Dante Alighieri goes beyond the literature and his ability to reunite all the dialects and various languages that were spoken across Italy in the XIV century under the current Italian language. His divine comedy suggested to the Catholics the structure and organization of what happens after our death and in the very last “canto” of the Paradise he described that God is ourselves which to me is beyond literary genius. I can’t believe that someone who lived 700 years ago could write something like this:

And for what I saw
My words are not enough to call them meager.

O everlasting Light, you dwell alone
In yourself, know yourself alone, and known
And knowing, love and smile upon yourself!

That middle circle which appeared in you
To be conceived as a reflected light,
After my eyes had studied it a while,

Within itself and in its coloring
Seemed to be painted with our human likeness
So that my eyes were wholly focused on it.

As the geometer who sets himself
To square the circle and who cannot find,
For all his thought, the principle he needs,

Just so was I on seeing this new vision
I wanted to see how our image fuses
Into the circle and finds its place in it,

Yet my wings were not meant for such a flight —
Except that then my mind was struck by lightning
Through which my longing was at last fulfilled.

.

Here powers failed my high imagination:
But by now my desire and will were turned,
Like a balanced wheel rotated evenly,

By the Love that moves the sun and the other stars.

Dante’s description of God having “our human likeness” has not had the impact that the rest of his comedy has been having for hundreds of years and this makes me believe that human kind prefers to believe that something superior and not human can control our lives because it’s much easier hoping in this to solve our problems rather than working very hard to figure out what to do about them by ourselves.
The existence of a God and having a soul are themes that have generated some of the best thoughts and pieces of literature since the invention of print and thinkers like Leibnitz and Averroè have produced parts of literature that still today in this second millennium are magnificent, I like very much their distinction between soul and intellect where the first is mortal unlike the second one. There exist very much to read and learn on the subjects that I just mentioned but only having an open intellect and mind is worth going further than what I’m writing here.

CUMULATIVE NEGATIVES



What’s been making me angry and disappointed is that – as anyone can read here below – I never said that doing HBOT I’ll return to be as I was, mine has been since April of last year – when I discovered it – just a big hope reinforced by real neurologists and doctors with direct experience in people like me that returned to be and do what they were thanks to the help of HBOT.
What makes me very disappointed is that my (soon to be ex-) wife decided to listen to her lover rather than give me the chance to invest a small part of the half mil. in savings that I had put in savings accounts “for times of needs”, she instead listened to her lover who like anybody else in the medical field doesn’t prescribes what wasn’t studied in 50 y/o book texts.
So now that my savings are all gone I have to divorce to at least directly receive again my disability monthly checks because my (ex) wife has been forced by my divorce lawyer to give up the power of attorney that I gave to her while still normal and able to have my life.
I’m going to continue to hope and do HBOT especially now that I’m doing it “by the book” but my negative feelings to have lost all I care for and I built in my life so far make me angry and especially being forced to divorce for the (too) simple reason that my (ex) wife doesn’t believe in supporting my effort to get better, she has listened to her lover and has decided many months ago that I’d be wasting money, so it doesn’t matter that she tossed half mil, what counts that she did it and it wasn’t me following my very reasonable dream.
So I’m now at the point that I want to really see if HBOT can repair my brain not only because it feels good to be right but also because too many things have been left behind and I intend to have them again.

MY OWN GENETICS

I just watched for the second time in few days the movie with Benigni titled "life is wonderful" so I had plenty time to think about what I was seeing since I already knew what was going to happen and here's what I realized.
Sixty years ago the Germans under Hitler tried to exterminate the Jews to get rid of them from the earth so many in that period got involved and saw the brutality/perversity of what was being done to people that had nothing different than a last name or descendants that were Jew.
My grandfather was an engineer like my dad is and was in the Fascist army as a colonel sent between Rome and Napoli to reclaim the huge swamps that had been there for many centuries.
After he had done this he was sent to a Greek island to oversee a small battalion of soldiers who were in charge of protecting the population from German attacks, this was when he was captured by the German army and sent by train to Auschwitz where he stayed few months enough to see several thousands of Jews burnt alive or "gasified" in showers where they were told that could wash themselves.
My grandfather Umberto (his name) somehow escaped and returned to Brescia - 900 miles away with the alps in-between - by walking and when he knocked at the door of his home in Brescia his wife - Carolina - didn't recognize him and thought he was a beggar, he was 190 pounds at the beginning of the war and by the time he knocked on the door he was barely 110 pounds, he had suffered multiple strokes (heart attacks) and lived little longer, my father can't remember very much about his own father and once told me that he prefers this because his memories are all happy and good, he says that if he could remember more he probably would have painful and sad memories, when Umberto died my dad had just turned 20 and was living in Milan with his brother Dino to attend the university there.
My own complete inability and refusal to accept how disabled I've gotten is then something part of my genes, it's in my heart and blood in other words and nothing can possibly change this, Umberto walked through wonderful areas of northern Italy and I bet he went through Como and its lake and I'm sure that having a very weak heart he could have stayed in many of the places he walked through but he didn't, something was more important for him to accomplish no matter the pain in his chest and how tired he was.
I can say the same about another Lingiardi ancestor, I don't know the name, just that he lived in Pavia and had an organ making company, the Lingiardi organs were in most of the churches of a specific bandwidth of the north of Italy and were renowned for having the "human voice" and my ancestor was sure that it was him giving this "voice" to his organs because he was the one tuning the organ canes by blowing in them with his own lungs but by putting lead in his mouth he developed mouth cancer that became such a bad metastathasis that while tuning the canes he was bleeding.
Even when the doctors at his time told him to stop to tune canes because even if they didn't know of cancer it was obvious that the injury was provoked by tuning the organ canes he never stopped until he died because in his mind he was doing the most important thing to make his organs appreciated by both players and listeners. Once again one of my ancestors didn't accept his disability developed doing his own job and kept on going till death.
All of these stories and examples of ancestors in my family illustrate medically, genetically and scientifically my inability to accept the way I am now and are my reasons to ask forgiveness and support in my long battle against my conditions now that I know for sure that I can return to be a normal man.

MONEY MANAGEMENT



In these times of deep crisis is paramount to rely on very experienced and successful investment advisors who can network in their field and in many other industries to give much needed profits so that in a short time the money saved becomes more and can provide luxuries never imagined before.
My money manager has been the same person for years and is at this point a friend who cares not only for my money but for me also, so I put here the link to the company where he has been working for many years and that has always been very successful in what it does.

http://www.greenvillefinancial.com/

I’ve recently started again to connect with J. Taylor who has been taking care of my wealth for years, even if now is much reduced than it used to be, the fact that he is part of a very good company of financial advisors and that I know him personally ensures that to continue to have him as my advisor is the right thing to do.

ME AT WORK

Without writing a resume I’m going to give an idea of how I came to California as president of TEVA sandals
http://www.teva.com/index.aspx
It was 1996 when I asked to be transferred to the USA by the company that I had worked for 4 years already which was
http://www.gore.com/en_xx/
I had the position of business leadership of the footwear segment and the fact that many Italian shoe manufacturers had distributors here plus that many American companies had productions in Italy made my presence at the worldwide headquarters of Gore very convenient because I was able to understand the reason of certain decisions made by either party and make sure that the business could grow for all involved.
Being able to directly communicate with the Italians was certainly a big plus because even communicating in good English doesn’t allow to get the feeling of what really matters sometimes.
After I took a presidency level position at GEOX US. http://www.geox.com/
I introduced this brand in the American distribution market
In this company I learned how to be in complete charge of a business, from distribution to marketing to finances with an eye on legal matters.
It was September of 2003 when I moved with my family to the beautiful Lyme in NH to work as VP of the footwear division
Of Tecnica USA http://www.tecnicausa.com/tec_start.html
Where I worked until I went to work at TEVA in Santa Barbara.

Here are few links about my career

• http://www.advfn.com/news_Deckers-Outdoor-Appoints-Carlo-Lingiardi-as-Teva-Brand-President_12162790.html
• http://www.allbusiness.com/retail-trade/miscellaneous-retail-miscellaneous/4478609-1.html
• http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m0EIN/is_2005_August_12/ai_n14891494/
• http://www.thefreelibrary.com/Deckers+Outdoor+Appoints+Carlo+Lingiardi+as+Teva+Brand+President-a0135061089
• http://www.highbeam.com/doc/1G1-135475768.html
• http://www.allbusiness.com/retail-trade/miscellaneous-retail-miscellaneous/4449297-1.html

FORGIVENESS



Why not seize the day to check out how life is going? To do it I must rethink my errors and remember the successes, forgive myself for failures and take pride in my achievements. And remember that these errors, successes, failures and achievements are my story, the story of my life.And for this reason they should all be equally valued. Without them, I would not be who I am today.
One of the most useful messages I received today. One of the most difficult situation I find myself in all the time - forgive myself for my failures … though I completely understand that it is the only way to make peace with myself. Anyways … one of those things: easier said than done.
I watched a movie last evening when a Muslim priest says to the principal character who is dying and knows it that he must forgive himself to go in peace and explains that to be angry at someone or something is what we do on our own, in fact what makes very angry somebody can even be funny for somebody else.
To me this goes along to what I say about Aristotle, a man who lived about 2.000 years ago who thinks of something that’s still valid today. I’m not Muslim nor I know anything about this religion but what it says about forgiveness is true and it belongs to the human kind so it’s valid in every religion too.
I’ve been thinking very much to the anger that I have for what my wife is doing and for her lover to the point that I had intended to give a punishment that can end lots of things, but thinking that others can see this relationship that I call immoral as a good one forces me to figure out what I need to forgive myself of to be able to move on to regain balance in my life.

ARISTOTLE ON ETHICS



Aristotle asserted that man had three natures: vegetable (physical), animal (emotional) and rational (mental). Physical nature can be assuaged through exercise and care, emotional nature through indulgence of instinct and urges, and mental through human reason and developed potential. Rational development was considered the most important, as essential to philosophical self-awareness and as uniquely human. Moderation was encouraged, with the extremes seen as degraded and immoral. For example, courage is the moderate virtue between the extremes of cowardice and recklessness. Man should not simply live, but live well with conduct governed by moderate virtue. This is regarded as difficult, as virtue denotes doing the right thing, to the right person, at the right time, to the proper extent, in the correct fashion, for the right reason.

Sexual relationships between doctors and patients can create ethical conflicts, since sexual consent may conflict with fiduciary responsibility of the physician. In the early 1990s it was estimated that 2 to 9% of doctors had violated the rule of sexual relationships between physicians and patients and patients relatives, which may also be prohibited in some jurisdictions, although this prohibition is highly controversial.

BEING SUPERFICIAL



I’ve been told that my saying that HBOT is going to make me return the man I was before the accident that caused the brain injury is often understood like my understanding and confidence that the oxygen can erase these last 4 years of my life.
This to me is to say the least and be kind an evident sign of being very superficial and just listening to the words I say without even trying to understand their meaning.
How can a loving husband forget that his wife has fallen in love with another and that his children can’t live their natural father is a mark in my soul that nothing in the world can erase, my life in the past 4 years is what has fueled my determination to return to be the man I was physically because nothing will ever be able for me to live like nothing happened.
I call this superficial thinking of people who cannot do anything else than react to something that happens to them, they cannot understand what may happen or is about to.
Poor people is all I can comment because it’s real poverty of mind what marks them. I advise you to stay away from people like this.

DREAMS COME TRUE

The Performance chamber I'm renting for two months of HBOT that I’ll be using in the way that people with TBI have done for many years and that’s recommended by the biggest experts in this field. This is going to be the unique way for me to learn if my brain can really recover from the devastation that was inflicted by the young criminal who was driving a car without license and wasn’t punished at all for what he did.
I’ve set already some ways to determine and measure the improvements that I may have, I just spent two days with one person who has treated and healed already many people and whose track record is only of seeing patients getting like they were before the injury so there was no doubt that my brain is going to heal and that I’m going to return to be like I was four years ago.
This combination to have this chamber and the visit of a person without any doubts about the result of what I’ve been wanting to do and the results of doing it's been like having an injection of positivism which is going to remain in me for a very long time.

So now my big curiosity is about the way my wife Michele is going to react to my physical return to be able to walk which for me corresponds to return to work like I did for about 20 years of life and what her boyfriend will say and do with my return to life like it’s been up to 4 years ago, what’s going to be of my children will be decided by the judge in charge of my divorce that even if it encountered stumbling blocks put in by Michele is going to proceed very rapidly now.

MOVING FORWARD



This Sunday I’m going to receive a Performance chamber that I'll be renting for awhile and I’ll have the opportunity to verify personally if healing my brain can allow me to return to be the man I was and do what I was best at doing in various areas. The day after tomorrow I’ll do a Neuropsychological Evaluation which will tell if my reasoning and logic are still sound or if the injury has negatively affected me also menthally besides physically.

THE ACTUAL SPECT scans OF MY BRAIN



Earlier I received the CD with the SPECT scan that I’ve done at dr. Uszler office and I put here the two that are easiest to understand for me even if the one where my brain is all gray was done in an hospital near where I live months before the one in color, they show the extent and position of the injury while the colors identify where my brain is over - under reactive or dead, for someone who understand how to look at these kinds of scans the size and gravity of my injury are very evident and this doctor made me understand that brain plasticity and oxygen therapy can work together to take over what’s dead. My biggest learning of talking with the doctor is that if I could have done this test many months ago it would have been clear that doing 40 sessions of HBOT is just the beginning of what also dr. Harch called “long journey” without ever having even seen me in person.
So now the focus is on doing more HBOT breathing pure oxygen at 1.5ATA which is what I haven’t been able to do in months.
Dr. Uszler suggested the use of even higher pressures, he mentioned 1.7, 1.8 but having learned from when I did ten sessions at 1.75 that my sight suffered in width, I prefer to stay within the standard 1.5.
One of the red parts of my brain says that my anxiety is very high and I commented to the doctor that it’s due to my divorce and complete lack of support from my wife. He told me that he had to live through this same experience so he knows why I say that.

SPECT SCAN RESULTS



Tomorrow I’m going to receive in my mail the CD containing the pictures of my brain by SPECT scan and the report that dr. Uszler has written about what it shows, the pictures of my brain won’t be like the ones that I put here below but they are done using modern 3D imaging http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Single_photon_emission_computed_tomography
That takes time and expertise to understand very well, in fact the parts showing problems will be highlighted by pointing arrows in different colors.
I really can’t wait to receive the CD so in the meantime I put here a picture of when dr. Uszler was explaining to me my scans.

BABE RUTH



Dr. Harch makes the example in the Brain Storm documentary of what the legendary baseball player Babe Ruth said once regarding what a ball he had hit was going to go over the barriers of the field, he says that HBOT is going to revolutionize medicine and neurology forever in a near future, I too like to make examples when talking and explaining something and I think that it’s obvious.
To me using examples, even if elementary or stupid is the best way to bring forward a concept that may be hidden behind facts so the example that dr. Harch makes is brilliant even if I’ve never been interested in baseball and I never followed it.
I do believe that what dr. Harch explained with this example is something due to happen soon because of the suicide epidemic among our soldiers with TBI. As when in sports something exceptional happens and people act with surprise I’m sure that when this therapy that’s been known and used for decades for conditions far from TBI the whole medical world will act the same.

NEXT TWO DAYS



Tomorrow I’m going to talk with the doctor who evaluates my SPECT scan and who knows of HBOT so he can tell me if I can continue to have progress by doing more of it and the day after I’m going to do a neurological evaluation with a very experienced neuropsychologist I have emailed with for months, so in the next two days I’ll learn almost everything I’ve been wanting to know for years and I’m going to be “free and clear” to both divorce and hopefully continue to do HBOT. Even if I believe in a therapy that is still experimental it’s going to be with official medical testing that my fight to return to be the man I was is going to move forward and I find this hilarious.
So tomorrow I will post here the SPECT scan of my own brain with what Dr. Uszler will have told me even if I’ve been wrong since April 2007 because I’ve always and only been honest in my life and I’m certainly not going to change now that I’m a father who knows of the commitment of giving example to his children.

SPECT SCAN



Too many doctors and big experts have told me that the best way to understand where the injury in my brain is and how fast and complete the healing supported by HBOT can be is by doing a SPECT scan that shows very clearly in colors the blood supply.
So I’m going to go here http://drspectscan.com/index12.html and with this test I will learn if by continuing to do HBOT I'll get help in the healing of my brain injury. Based on what the scan will tell I’ll make some important decisions that will be explained here.

WHOSE MONEY



Since even before I married Michele I never wanted to distinguish the money that I was earning from hers which never existed, so each bank account and savings account I ever had was on both our names and we still have one open but since I basically got killed Michele has opened her own and put every dollar I’ve ever saved on her own name only plus what I’m earning now with disability goes to her own only bank account.
After completely sharing with her every dime I ever earned her changed behavior since the accident is one that I really cannot understand. She justifies this by saying that if I spend money to do a therapy that I believe that can heal my brain she and the children won’t have the quality of life that I got them used to. I could understand this only if I had nothing else than the savings but my disability is pretty good, it’s like the salary of a past job of mine.
So not only Michele doesn’t share at all anymore with me but she invests in unknown companies that go bankrupt immediately after she makes the investment instead of investing in her husband getting better with an experimental therapy.
Looking through her hasn’t ever been too difficult for me and I’ve seen that her lover is her financial counselor who gets his payments in nature from her and in never spending a dime to make my children live better.
This embarassement is about to end and I can see through already Michele what her lover will do, it’s too easy not to see it.

IACOPO VETTORI



Iacopo and I have become friends thanks to Dante Alighieri, our passion and understanding of Dante’s work and the metaphysic concepts that are involved to explain narrations in Dante’s Comedy.
The way I encountered Iacopo is through his Italian reading of the Divine Comedy http://www.iacopovettori.it/recitazione/commedia/Default.aspx
Which has arrived at the Paradise Canto VIII. Iacopo has written about the three hypotheses about what we should expect to find at the end of our lives, his intelligent reasoning can be read if you follow this link http://www.iacopovettori.it/laterzaipotesi/eng/The_three_hypotheses.aspx
When I first read it I had many questions to ask Iacopo because I was raised Catholic and I now believe that what Pascal said about believing in God is logic and safe to do.
Iacopo is an atheist even if he has been studying for years the work of Dante who wrote the report of the travel in the outer world which he organized like Christians believe is like and added details that were part of legends of peasants of his time.
Through our email discussions I’ve grown and matured very much, therefore many questions, fears and doubts about my accident and future are now completely resolved.

POINTS OF VIEW

The exact same idea or fact can be seen good and bad depending on how the information is presented so to prove this here is my example.
Positive While I was riding my bicycle young Wojick drove the father’s car against me and when he saw my bloody conditions on the asphalt called 911 which came with an ambulance with very good doctors who did what necessary to keep me alive while taking me to an hospital with very experienced doctors who repaired my head fractures and replaced some of my skull bones with parts in titanium of the exact same shape, all who knew me before the accident can’t see any difference at all in my face and facial expressions, my unique leftover damage is a brain injury that soon will heal with the therapy that I did and will continue to do.
Negative The young criminal Wojick took the car of his father even if without driver’s license or an adult in the car overseeing his driving and since the windshield was covered with mud he made a left turn against me, instead of letting me die he got scared to be accused of manslaughter so he called 911 that arrived very fast with people who are paid and swear to never let somebody die. As I arrived at the hospital the fact that I had brain injury which cannot be cured of fixed didn’t matter at all to anybody, the focus was on my survival and do the best patch up work possible.
Final truth Even if I’m alive and I look the same as I’ve ever looked my brain injury has devastated all I had built and developed in life, my wife is in love with …… and keeps me away from my children so I’m divorcing, my money has been decimated (divided by ten) so the only therapy that can heal my brain injury is unaffordable to me.

Draw your own conclusions

MY DIVORCE



My wife was served the papers of my decision to divorce, so it will be in a court in Ventura and I’ve already started to refer to my children as my treasures as the ancient roman Cornelia referred to her children Gracchi during a party given by the emperor of the time when every participant was displaying their very expensive and rare jewels to all others. My treasures will inherit from me all my money and all my real estates in the world.
My wife believes that I still love her as I’ve always loved her as a consequence of my brain injury.
The other day I made an example to her that I was hoping that she could understand having been a dog trainer, I asked her what she may do to her dog stealing and eating the steak planned for dinner knowing that she would have told me that the dog would have gotten beaten with something like a baseball bat, instead she asked me what I was trying to suggest and when I told her that in my example she’s the steak and the dog is her lover she said that this is another demonstration of how bad my logic is due to the brain injury.
Maybe my logic isn’t sound but what’s most out of normality is my wife’s who is in love with someone 13 years older than she is and who’s planning a work life change at a stage of it that it’s just like when somebody stops working and starts buying lottery tickets every day planning to be a billionaire eventually.
Since I still love my wife I do still care of her and it hurts me knowing that surely in few months I’ll be the man I was thanks to HBOT which will be covered by insurance because medically accepted for brain injury so I’ll work and earn again like I’ve always done in my life while she will realize that she loves someone over 60 and she has lost all the wealth that I had given to her plus my treasures = her children.
To label her future as pitiful is to go very light with adjectives so I’m not going to say my thinking about the other pity in her life because it’s something human, you know who I’m referring to.

CLASS ACTION SUIT

http://autism-supplements.com/supplementsforautism/index.php?main_page=HBOT

The damage to my brain is in the right occipital lobe and the connections between the neurons in that lobe with the nerves that control the left side of my body were severed so since the human body reconnects millions of nerves that get severed daily I must be patient and do very much HBOT, which is going to become affordable to do in not too long of a time.
A Philadelphia attorney named Console is collecting suitors and is teaming with several collegue attorneys to give very much strength to this suit.
I called already weeks ago and I ask you to call too, the number is 1-800-690-4033 so it’s toll free even. With my research and many contacts I feel that this year already this therapy will become covered by medical insurance so even if I won’t desperatly need to do HBOT anymore.

POSITIVE ATTITUDE



As I was in the chamber doing therapy today I started to think of the importance of time in life, I was 42 and half when I was struck while riding my bike, now I’m 46 and I’ve been fighting for two years my brain injury and I feel like I’ve been doing it for centuries but I realized that my grandmother on my father’s side was 88 when she passed and my father, her son is now 83 and living fairly well in Verona with his wife, my mother, this made me imagine that I’ll be alive at least until I’ll be my father’s age which will be year 2046.
That year my children will be in their late forties, certainly married and giving me grandchildren.
For me to be demanding to heal my brain injury in very few months starting in April 2007 is just the prove that I’ve always lived my life at speed of light but now that I realize that I still have plenty years and millions of opportunities to return to be the man I was I change my approach of desperation for nothing happening when I want it to satisfaction for living when soon HBOT will have medical approval, therefore it will be covered by medical insurances and stem cell research being financially supported by our government and becoming soon available in this country.
These thoughts finally put at peace my attitude that nothing happens soon enough so my focus going forward will not be on myself and my misfortunes but on being the best possible father to my children and figure out the way to utilize my work knowledge and experience to do again what I’m best at.
If by doing this my wife will be able to see the man she loved I’ll welcome her with open arms, if she will insist with her love for herself I’ll just keep waiting for her to realize her mistake. However I don’t want anyone to think that I’m just going to wait for external solutions to my situation, I’m never going to stop to fight my everyday battle to return as I was and return to be the father I was for my maturing children.

BRAIN STORM


The video interview to Dr. Harch who explains with the appearance of many very high level politicians the efficacy of HBOT when it’s used to treat even conditions that the traditional medicine science cannot and does not deal with.
I cannot imagine a better way to describe and explain the importance and efficacy of this method to treat a brain injury.
This way of taking care of injuries has been in use for dozens of years and as Dr. Harch says there’s no difference about where the injury in the body is, oxygen creates the best conditions and environment for the body itself to heal.
What Dr. Harch says towards the end of this video is so full of experience and sensitivity that should be listened to every day by everybody.
I put the link to this video interview here to make it possible to see to by as many as possible and by the object of my wife’s love who is so convinced to know-it-all that he wrote to me the letter here below "MY FORMER PHYSIATRIST SAYS".

STABILITY

http://www.ch3.it/index.php


I have two dear friends that worked with me at Gore when I still lived in Italy and they now are studying and developing a special membrane called STABILITY that gives through infrared rays big balance therefore helps people affected by Parkinson disease and many other situations that affect the ability to keep good balance on the feet. They have sent me two shirts in Polypropylene that I’ve been wearing in amazement for a few days, also my caregiver tells me that my walking has suddenly improved very much.
One of these two friends has always been involved with garments, their production and commercialization while the other I’ve always called a scientist because his passion has been the understanding of the chemistry and physics of what are called membranes, after working at Gore he worked for companies in the business of food protection from spoiling and bacteria done with membranes of different materials.
He is conducting what are called ‘field tests’ and has given this product to many people affected by Parkinson and other diseases to test how the Stability membrane helps.
So now with Stability shirts and HBOT there’s no reason not to overcome completely what the brain injury has left me with. I also have Power Balance that should have the same effect, I haven’t used both these two products at the same time since I don’t know what may happen but just using Stability I’ve progressed already very much.
I’m about to make a small improvement to the way my chamber supplies oxygen to me, so very soon the improvements of each session will become visible.

HBT vs. HBOT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVGSCp6ekJs&feature=related

The video here gives an almost medical explanation of why my future therapies are going to be done where I had started them, to use a portable chamber at home isn’t giving pure oxygen to the brain nor to the rest of the body, it’s just putting under pressure the body with the risk that the air used to do it isn’t pure, this is why I’m hoping to sell my chamber to someone with problem wounds because it’s just about what it can be good for.

NOTHING IS SURE



Since my accident my life has become all about trying to do what I want because nothing is given for sure anymore, I want to return to be like I was not too long ago and I want my marriage not to end with divorce. The price tag of what the criminal who drove me over would be very high for a very wealthy person so for an unemployed kid in a family of a pool cleaner it’s beyond affordable, only years in jail could make things right, just like if somebody destroys with a hammer the Tiffany store window, nobody would even ask for refund, jail is the only way to punish the act. The criminal and its family of criminals knew this very well so they avoided to go in court in front of a judge and agreed to give me the crumbs that my side thought could be enough.
Crazy is the only word I can use for my wife, it hurts me beyond the capacity to say with words how much it hurts me to have to divorce, it’s the only way I can think to do of returning to be in charge of my own life and protect my wealth from her lover. I’m not going to write here what I would do to this nasty bastard, it may put me in trouble, suffice it to write this.
I’ve been begging my wife to give me one chance to avoid the divorce and I’ve tried to involve my own family in Italy also but all seems to be frozen so at this point nothing is sure.

MY PORTABLE CHAMBER



I’ve been studying HBOT for more than two years and I now I understand and know it so well that I was mistaken as a researcher twice while on the phone with a scientist talking about it. I have wanted to do this therapy since April 2007 and only in October 2008 I did forty sessions because nobody in the world believes that it can heal an injury in the brain.
My improvements of the time in October that I did therapy were almost non-measurable so I started to study the portable chambers that are used to treat children with autism and I learned that brain injury is treated very well at a lower pressure than 1.5 ATA and this type of chamber can reach 1.3 ATA easily.
So I just purchased a portable chamber using the money that my parents gifted me for my birthday. The cost of just one session where I went for the ones before this purchase pays for dozens with this portable and not only I can use it twice a day but I can exercise and use the Jacuzzi immediately before and after having used my new chamber.
Nobody in the world can predict how many times I must use it before I can walk again and show mental improvements but since I own a chamber in my home now I’m going to use it hundreds of times before I know that I don’t need it anymore. This is to me like being born again so my parents did it twice.

POWER BALANCE
http://www.powerbalance.net/




Ms. Taylor Holiday sent me a sample of this incredible new technology that makes the balance of people impossible to get lost, it’s a wristband that I’m going to be wearing from now on when I walk, http://www.youtube.com/user/PowerBalance this is the link to videos of this technology in use that when I saw I immediately thought that it could help my walking.
Right now it’s marketed to people in sports especially surfers but I’m convinced that there exists a very large market also in the medical field because thousands are the people that due to injuries of various kinds and age need help with balance to walk.

MY BET


I watch the BRAIN STORM movie every morning as I start my work in internet and while I understand that to soldiers with PTSD or stress disorder HBOT makes miracles and returns them to the life they had, I know that my TBI destroyed half of my skull which is now in titanium and I was in a coma for a much longer period of time, i.e. two months, than what the soldiers is said that they were, if they even did went into a coma, so my own bet with myself is that by doing enough HBOT I will return to be the man I was and this is why I’m buying a portable chamber to use at home.
I want to make sure that who reads here about what I’m doing understands the dangers of using a portable chamber at home and the potential risks of oxygen at a concentration level more than the soft chambers pressurized to 1.3 ATA. In normal room air oxygen is 21% and under the soft chamber pressure it reaches 28%. I’m curious to test if getting in and out of the chamber that I want is easy or will require a major effort and some device to do it, this will make the decision not to buy it and use the gifted money to do more sessions in the hard chamber where I used to go.
My complete confidence that HBOT can heal the injury in a brain cannot be changed and I wish that the therapy could be accepted at medical level, I know that I’m going to need very many sessions of it and I wish that I could afford to pay for them without having to buy a soft chamber.