RECAPPING
My story goes like this: while happily riding my bicycle shortly after having taken the position of president of TEVA footwear I was struck by a kid driving his father’s car without the license and I had Traumatic Brain Injury, I was in a coma for 2 months and as I got out of it I was convinced that a TBI is just like a flue, people can recover and it’s all like it was before once recovered, I even told to my (now) ex-wife not to tell too much to my children because they were so young that they would forget about me being in a hospital for a long time.
I’ve been trying for more than 6 years to recover and all hell has broken loose in my life.
In short my ex-wife has abandoned me to replace me with my own doctor (who has done nothing illegal – as the medical board states) but not after having wasted my lifetime of savings while working and all my wealth in general.
Not only she now lives happily with my former doctor but she brought with her my children who are instructed by her that this lover is their father figure.
Now I also must be private with any and all medical procedures that I attempt to improve my disabilities, she would tell her lover/doctor and report to me all the possible bad outcomes of somebody trying them with an injured brain.
On top of this they both tell to my children that their real and beloved dad is never going to get better no matter what he says or tries to do, so I can’t even tell anything about what I do to them.
So basically I had to divorce and even if I’m the real victim the law says that since I was married for more than 10 years and I had kids with her I must give to her and my children 60% of my disability income.
In short I now must live by myself and have my adorable children visit me one day a week and not only I can’t help them in their studies but I must also guard what I tell them because my divorce stipulates that I can’t ever say anything about their mother and her lover.
I was lucky to find a caregiver who liked me so much that I now call my sister, however by being in the middle between me and my ex-wife, she has gotten so fed up of me and my life that she may abandon me, just like my ex-wife did.
In the impossible case that I may one day recover I’d have to look for someone else to be my companion in a life that I can’t wish to have to anybody.
In a way I now have even more reasons and justifications to end my own life as soon as I can.
In this long process I also lost my faith that was in the Catholic God, I actually lived through an atheistic period, but now I think like the ancient Romans did, after death there’s nothing, the idea of the existence of a soul that may have a life of itself after death is replaced by the human intelligence that never dies, it’s enough to think of people like Einstein, Raffaello or Dante Alighieri to know that even hundreds of years after they died their thoughts and intelligence still exist today.
So since my ancestors built organs that still today exist in some churches in Italy, I too am looking for something to do that will make my person/intelligence immortal besides the memory of my own dear children.
My story goes like this: while happily riding my bicycle shortly after having taken the position of president of TEVA footwear I was struck by a kid driving his father’s car without the license and I had Traumatic Brain Injury, I was in a coma for 2 months and as I got out of it I was convinced that a TBI is just like a flue, people can recover and it’s all like it was before once recovered, I even told to my (now) ex-wife not to tell too much to my children because they were so young that they would forget about me being in a hospital for a long time.
I’ve been trying for more than 6 years to recover and all hell has broken loose in my life.
In short my ex-wife has abandoned me to replace me with my own doctor (who has done nothing illegal – as the medical board states) but not after having wasted my lifetime of savings while working and all my wealth in general.
Not only she now lives happily with my former doctor but she brought with her my children who are instructed by her that this lover is their father figure.
Now I also must be private with any and all medical procedures that I attempt to improve my disabilities, she would tell her lover/doctor and report to me all the possible bad outcomes of somebody trying them with an injured brain.
On top of this they both tell to my children that their real and beloved dad is never going to get better no matter what he says or tries to do, so I can’t even tell anything about what I do to them.
So basically I had to divorce and even if I’m the real victim the law says that since I was married for more than 10 years and I had kids with her I must give to her and my children 60% of my disability income.
In short I now must live by myself and have my adorable children visit me one day a week and not only I can’t help them in their studies but I must also guard what I tell them because my divorce stipulates that I can’t ever say anything about their mother and her lover.
I was lucky to find a caregiver who liked me so much that I now call my sister, however by being in the middle between me and my ex-wife, she has gotten so fed up of me and my life that she may abandon me, just like my ex-wife did.
In the impossible case that I may one day recover I’d have to look for someone else to be my companion in a life that I can’t wish to have to anybody.
In a way I now have even more reasons and justifications to end my own life as soon as I can.
In this long process I also lost my faith that was in the Catholic God, I actually lived through an atheistic period, but now I think like the ancient Romans did, after death there’s nothing, the idea of the existence of a soul that may have a life of itself after death is replaced by the human intelligence that never dies, it’s enough to think of people like Einstein, Raffaello or Dante Alighieri to know that even hundreds of years after they died their thoughts and intelligence still exist today.
So since my ancestors built organs that still today exist in some churches in Italy, I too am looking for something to do that will make my person/intelligence immortal besides the memory of my own dear children.
